I have been absent! There was no mind to blogging in the last year. It's a new year. I need inspiration. Quick update....dad died...mom died...her house got burned the next day. I made a huge mistake in my relationship, but I think it was a bit of self-punishment as well.got with someone that has a record of domestics but was never at fault. Same with me. I was the one that initiated it every time. Pffft! My daughter has lost her fucking marbles and gave up everything that was good for her and wants to have her tubes untied to have more kids with that imbecile wanna be #MarshalMatthers looser bitch that has been born from the same cloth as the princess. Self-righteous, the world 'ows' me spoiled ass brats. Yea yea yea...all you girls were molested and treated bad by your families and it's our fault you are loveless lazy ass cunts.  All you boys witnessed something so dramatic it turned you into gangsters and only defiance hides your true emotions that will make you cry like a little girl if they ever came out. ....but anyways, this is about me... not them... (*cough* loosers *cough*).  I am not quite there yet, but I am trying to get back into my writing. I just need the right space, peace, freedom, TIME... but that's where I believe I was handed all the bad cards. For now...as I said...TIME is the most important thing...taking as well as receiving as well as being patient... patience...that's what I need the most